mar 6
i am the pothole between a rock and a hard place--- crazy acres has always been teetering under some impossible project or another.... and flexibility to weather any storm has always been our success..
i personally need another project equally as compelling-- i have turned over the mamagement of the SDP to the board and lynn-- who i hope will recognize that does not mean i have turned over the CONTROL of me.. because i am sure you all recognize life would be a lot simpler if i was just stashed away in a nursing home--- to be medcated to snoozing like all the places i now enjoy visiting. with the 3 dogs i now own. i have always had 4 to 8 .....
as long as i have a breath in me--- and can back up a trailer, i have and can earn enough money to support myself and whatever animals i choose to acquire....
without that project, i will put my dogs in the forrunner, take that iron stove apart and put it in the trailer and drive off looking for a place to live.
there is a broadway show song. from .. "carnival"--- "i've got to find a reason..." ---wonderful show....
PAUL-- SINGING
Look my friend do what’s best for you
Do what’s best for you
Look my friend I’m out of step with the rest of you
Is this the answer to your prayer
That’s fine, your prayer not mine
Your life not mine
The phony and fake with nothing to take
Or bring to the world
Just cling to the world for life
Look my friend I’m out of step with the rest of you
I’ve got to find a reason
For living on this earth
I’ve got to find a reason
For taking the space I take
Breathing the air I breathe
There’s more to this there’s more to me
Something in me that needs to
Do more than suck the breath from life
Like moss and leaves and weeds do
Holding up my head
Holding down a place
Being worth a name
To go with my face
I’ve got to find a reason
For living on this earth
Something to want
Something to be
Somehow to say
I am me L
aaaaaast
amen aaa
aUpdate: June, 10th 2013
amen