mar 6 

i am the pothole between a rock and a hard place--- crazy acres has always been teetering under some impossible project or another.... and flexibility to weather any storm has always been our success..  i personally need another project equally as compelling-- i have turned over the mamagement of the SDP to the board and lynn-- who i hope will recognize that does not mean i have turned over the CONTROL of me.. because i am sure you all recognize life would be a lot simpler if i was just stashed away in a nursing home--- to be medcated to snoozing like all the places i now enjoy visiting. with the 3 dogs i now own. i have always had 4 to 8 ..... as long as i have a breath in me--- and can back up a trailer, i  have and can earn enough money to support myself and whatever animals i choose to acquire....  without that project, i will put my dogs in the forrunner, take that iron stove apart and put it in the trailer and drive off looking for a place to live. there is a broadway show song.  from .. "carnival"--- "i've got to find a reason..." ---wonderful show.... PAUL-- SINGING Look my friend do what’s best for you Do what’s best for you Look my friend I’m out of step with the rest of you Is this the answer to your prayer That’s fine, your prayer not mine Your life not mine The phony and fake with nothing to take Or bring to the world Just cling to the world for life Look my friend I’m out of step with the rest of you I’ve got to find a reason For living on this earth I’ve got to find a reason For taking the space I take Breathing the air I breathe There’s more to this there’s more to me Something in me that needs to Do more than suck the breath from life Like moss and leaves and weeds do Holding up my head Holding down a place Being worth a name To go with my face I’ve got to find a reason For living on this earth Something to want Something to be Somehow to say   I am me L aaaaaast amen aaa aUpdate: June, 10th 2013 amen