the on going saga of the soup---- - the 32 pounds of soup.... having been to rhodeisland -- still weighing 60.5 pounds has been to lynnfield ( closer) and out for delivery saturday-- then sunday-- now tehy say monday--BY THE END OF TEH DAY- i have heard that story before.. in despiration i went and bought a cuppa soup-- but it was not as good as i remnember that blount soup to be.
maybe we are into strong desire for what we can not have. blount seems to have 3 week delivery on any orders now-- it looks like they took december off -looks like i am soupless til jan 2020. i will survive
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every year the town of i[pswich comes by with a small loaf of bannana bred around christmas tiem-- "ipswich cares" -- for the elderly--- me...last year the very nice lady handed it to me while i was on the tractor delivering manure to the pile... i thought that might have eliminated me from the program. however they are back again..l and it is good bannana bread... sitting here at my elbow...
made me think....
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on tv ??nbc?? this morning told of a secret santa who hands out $100 bills to unsuspecting people at this time of year....who look like they could use $100-- and he got the town's ( detroit?) bus drivers to join in passing out the bills- amazingly the bus drivers said they had discovered teh unexpected joy in giving.. certainoy that is true-- but come on americans--- there are an awful lot of you who would have a better christmas by handing out some $$ that you probably don't need anyway--instead of spending it on amazon to buy "objects" - i get catalogs with teh heading "ideas of what to buy for the person who has everything" what kind of nitwit do these catalogs think i am???? why would i want to ..... etc.....
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ingrid--working for disney--- saw a bunch of coats that were no longer needed-- and packaged tehm up ( perfectly) -- like 300 of them--- many of our volunteers took one-- and then.. as they saw a need here and there-- they dished them out as they saw a need... ingrid/disney gave us all teh ability to give-- everyone - both givers and takers--- had a wonderful time--it will be a long time before i forget the guy who took a coat because as he stood ther ehelping me unload in teh 20 degree temp.... he said " this sweatshirt is all i have------ so for ingrid-- we are down to 3 dozen in the training room ,3 boxes here in the house plus teh few over my head as samples. we will 'distribute ' those in the next 2 weeks and be ready for any more overflow of large quantities of corporate excess. --
there are 2 other corporations who have a similar of program of listing something they have bought and don''t need- and will also pay to have it shipped to any charity-- which explains some of the strange things you will see around here-- namely a full pallet 4'x4'x4' of chlorox wipes that we have it the cellar... they aren't soemthign we can cause much joy in distributing.....but we certainly are using them..
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yesterday-- someone got on my "case" about why are you puttin g in a 5' garage door along side a people door instead of just building a wall with a normal door? i was upset at having that decision questioned-- because under interrigattion-- i could not think why.
now writing this DD --- i remember one of the reasons-- so we can move large objects in that area with the tractor--- like pallets of chlorox wipes. the person questioning me had never had to deal with a 4x4x4 cube of chlrox wipes- so i sounded defient when all i could say was " just because "
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and then the sleeping pill bit--- we had alot of comments... from 1 to 5 mg...
I take 1mg when I can’t sleep and I konk out for the whole night. I do feel a bit woozy when I wake up but that goes away once I’ve had my coffee.
I can’t imagine taking a higher dose and being able to function in the morning.
I would suggest you try 1 mg and see that helps.
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REGARDING MEDICATION WEIRDNESS: I DEVELOPED WHAT SEEMED LIKE DEMENTIA IN LESS THAN A WEEK'S TIME. I KNEW I HADN'T HAD A STROKE, BUT I SUDDENLY HAD GREAT DIFFICULTY PUTTING TOGETHER A SENTENCE THAT MADE SENSE. I LIVE ON A CUL-DE-SAC, AND I WAS AFRAID TO LEAVE MY HOUSE TO WALK AROUND THE CUL-DE-SAC (6 HOUSES) FOR FEAR I WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO RECOGNIZE WHICH HOUSE WAS MINE! TURNS OUT IT WAS MEDICATION I HAD BEEN TAKING FOR YEARS - BENADRYL (WHICH I TOOK FOR 30 YEARS WITH NO PROBLEM) AND AN ANTIDEPRESSANT I HAD TAKEN FOR 10 YEARS WITH NO SIDE EFFECTS. THE DIFFERENCE? MY AGE. (70 AT THE TIME.) BOTH DRUGS ARE IN A CLASS CALLED "ANTICHOLINERGICS" WHICH CREATE DEMENTIA-LIKE SYMPTOMS IN THE ELDERLY. I STOPPED TAKING THEM, AND MY BRAIN STARTED WORKING AGAIN WITHIN 3 DAYS. NO PROBLEMS SINCE.
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as part of my scientific report , one must establish the degree of wooziness before and after medication.... i do--- with my suduko book- try and keep track just how woozy i am normally as opposed to when i have taken any drugs-- if my normal rate is 2/5--- meaning i do have a n inherinant state of wooz, but i have not backed into anything with my car ---, if it gets to a rate of 4/5 and i notice "welcome to maine " on the route 95 signs....or i begin to hit mul;tiple things -- i probably should not drive- at least on the road...
i am sure-- people who say it does not affect them--- are wrong. there are degrees...
